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Mind, Body, Soul
James Dean?
By Mona Lease
Greetings, Gals! By now you should be able to tell some sort of
difference in your body and mood if you've been doing the
exercises dated 7/5/2017 and forward. I edit these stories from women
for punctuation and I delete profanity. Another story follows.
"For whatever reason...I was drawn to the "James Dean" type. They were
too cool for rules. And they were too cool for school. They always
seemed to be laughing and joking. They always had a smile on their
face. It looked like they were always having fun. Most guys seemed to
want to be them. Most girls seemed eager to fulfill his every desire.
It was "James Dean and my business." The motto...one of many mottos
was: "If I did not tell you...you do not need to know."
Now here I sit. I sit wondering what woman is performing what desires
for my husband. I have girlfriends (had girlfriends?) who have sidled
up to him all giggly. Yep...too cool to be a husband. Yep...too cool to
ask the girls what they thought of their friendship with me that they
would act in such a manner. Just like James Dean..."fame, fortune, and
women."
Yes, James...he idolizes you so much that he took off work to cheat on
me...with a couple of women who know me. He is too cool for rules...so
much so...that he has neither confirmed nor denied the cheatings. Nor
have these women denied their part in the adultery. (Whose idea was
that??) I asked them.
My husband is too cool for rules. He'll lie at every turn. He will add
"facts" and say he "embellished" the story...made the story more
interesting.
My James Dean is so cool... he will manipulate a story...a situation so
he is the hero. He will take an embarrassing moment in my
life..."embellish" it to get the laughs...all at my expense. He has no
empathy. He has no concern for my feelings.
My baby...my James D...is a deceiver. I have watched him talk trash
about someone while he was walking up to them. Then when he got to
them...he poured on the "sugar" and made these people believe he is a
true friend to them. Yep..."He's my buddy" they say. I've wondered what
would happen if all of his trash-talk was recorded and played for them
to hear.
Most certainly my husband has sought out the weakest of the herd...as
it were. No woman...no self-respecting woman...would keep playing with
a married man knowing there was no divorce in sight for him...would she?
I sit and wonder if these women ever draw any lines in their lives. Do
they have any self-respect for themselves at all? Were they drawn to
him with his words of love (like I was?). Did they believe it when he
said how beautiful they were (like I did?).
Do they feel guilty...at all...when they see me out with my husband? Is
that why they seemingly ignore me? One woman was bold enough to get up
in my husband's face and talk in hushed tones. And there I was. She
gave me a cursory nod. Should I be glad I got that much?
Yep, James Dean...you were too cool for school and rules. And it looks
like I was "too cool" for a guy who looked "stuffy and boring."
And that's my life now...stuffy and boring. It seems you only have so
much energy to spend on work and "play dates at a cheap motel." Guess
who gets the dirty laundry. Guess who gets the fun."
Sometimes all you need is for someone to just be there, even if they
can't solve your problems. Just knowing there is someone who cares can
make all the difference. sun.gazing.com
The best is yet to be!! MONA
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