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Mind, Body, Soul
Never Fully
Letting Go
By Mona Lease
Greetings, Gals!! I'm going to give you readers excerpts from a chapter
a week until this book is finished. Some of this stuff I staggered
around in the dark for years until it got settled in my mind. Enjoy!!
The Art of Letting Go - Chapter 5 - To the Lovers We Never Fully Let Go
Of - Heidi Priebe
You know the one. They are the boys who catch your eye in hazy dive
bars when the clock winds down to close, the girls whose laughter asks
a question your body wants to answer.
They are the ones who drive you accidentally mad. The ones who promise
you absolutely nothing but deliver something you were never expecting:
something exhilarating and tantalizing and oddly unexpectedly
comforting.
You know the ones. They fade in and out as the years go on - a stray
text message there, vague plans to meet back up there. They are the
people who exist on your periphery - always a city or a plane ride or a
time zone or a life stage away. They are the people you keep track of
from a distance, scrolling through news feeds and checking in on at 2
am when a disappointing night winds to an end.
They are your maybe people, your someday people, your
what-if-in-a-different-world people who offer the possibility you're
lacking in this one.
Maybe there's a quiet, unspoken part of us that craves that possibility
more than it's realization. Maybe we thrive on these maybes and those
somedays more than we care to admit. Maybe we need to leave some doors
open and some chapters unwritten. Maybe it's those maybes that keep us
alive.
Because the truth about the lovers we can not let go of is that maybe
we don't want to ever realize each other's potential. Maybe we all like
to have someone to fantasize absentmindedly about, to catch up with
every two or three years when the geography and timing is right. Maybe
all of these people make up parts of ourselves that we don't want to
ever fully realize, but want to keep alive.
We want to be the person who could still fall in love with the boy from
three cities over, with the off-kilter laugh, and the mind that spins
and whirrs. We want to hold on to those drawn-out conversations with
the girl who flips our world upside down, with the patience in her
spirit and her careful measured thoughts.
We need to keep all of these versions of ourselves and each other
alive, to remember that we're never at a loss for them.
That no matter how far we run or stray or falter, a different version
of ourselves lives on inside of every person we have ever fallen half
in love with. We live to keep them alive inside each other, in case we
ever need to return to them.
In the strangest, most inexplicable way, we need these lovers that we
never fully let go of.
Because each one of them represents a whole entire world within
ourselves.
A world we aren't ready to let die. We aren't ready abandon. We aren't
ready to let go of completely.
At least, not yet.
Not yet.
I've found that much of the above works with chaste friendships between
men and women. And those who are just friends.
Everything's out there waiting for you to claim it. Keep
stretching...keep active...keep your dreams in front of you. It's not
over yet!
"Sometimes all you need is for someone to just be there, even if they
can't solve your problems. Just knowing there is someone who cares can
make all the difference." - sun.gazing.com
The best is yet to be!! MONAl
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